— Booker T. Washingto (via instila)
If you practice this daily, You can Achieve anything you set your Mind to.
There is something about being up in the middle of the night when everyone is asleep that is… calming…
It’s these nights that I let my mind wonder off to you..
Its not uncommon for me to be anxious daily.. I thought I finally am able to live with my day-to-day anxieties but.. last night was when it gotten the best of me. I had an anxiety attack to the point where my body shriveled up.. I couldn’t feel my fingers or my toes.. They were very tightly clench in a way that I couldn’t unravel them without forceably doing so. My heart rate was irregular with it being fast and then slow. I was sweating uncontrollably. I was feeling really weak and I was on the brick of passing out.. I must have looked really pale… Thankfully my sister was still awake and I was tended to and after several hours, I was feeling better.. My fingers and toes were back to normal (they were still tingly though) and it felt that my body did like a hard reset or something.. It was maybe then that.. I realized I reached my limit.. I can’t believe I worked so much that I pushed myself to my bodily limit. It really made me think.. what happened to all those other times where I would be so tired yet I persisted in pushing my mind even farther…
I am not here today to fish for pity but it was something I had to write down for future reference. To remind myself that I can’t study to the point of causing myself to have an anxiety attack.. I can’t overwork my mind or body because who knows.. I couldn’t have been so lucky to have someone around to help me. I will continue to live with anxiety I understand that. I will continue to study and do my very best at whatever I am doing. I just will have to understand where my limit will be and be very careful not to step past that line..
— Anonymous (via instila)
You’re my absolute without a doubt favorite reason to lose sleep. I love our late night phone calls and FaceTiming every night until we fall asleep. I love having those all nighters that ill remember forever. I love it all.
Recently visited a coffee shop downtown with my sister and decided to walk around and see what was going on that day and this song came on around the store.. and I do have to say, it was quite appropriate for the day.. the weather was about 68 and the sun was out.. it was not too early but not too late in the day.. just a very relaxed calm morning to early afternoon.. but anyway, it was a very very nice day.. my kind of day.
Every now and then I like to take these kinds of trips. Not extensive trips but trips that are just calm and relaxing. A visit downtown usually works for me. Just me and my music, enjoying the weather and enjoying a hot cup of tea or coffee. It helps me recollect myself. Recharge in a way. Away from tons of people and away from the daily things I usually do. (school and work) It these random days that help me stay composed.. help me clear out my mind that consisted of everyone’s expectations and be just left with what is, my own.. My own principles. My own thoughts. My own self.